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Thursday, November 12, 2009
LD VENUS UMPAMA HADIAH DARI ISTERI KEPADA SUAMI!
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
9th Anniversary
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
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Sunday, November 1, 2009
The Third
hari ni aku rasa mcm nak sembang2 pasal bab tambah menambah anak..hehehe..
ntah la, kadang2 aku rasa mcm nak baby lagi, tapi in certain situation, rasa macam cukup2 la 2 tu..mmmm...peningkah aku? may be lor! 50-50 la plak lately, tp kena pk byk2 dulu...
uols tau kan aku ada 2 little princess, they grown up well, Alhamdulillah. Ada yang kata we need a boy too, ada yang kata tak pa xdak boy...sigh. Well, aku tau setiap anak tu ada rezeki masing2, tapi kan for me la, aku tak sure samada fizikal dan mental aku mampu for the third one. Sebab apa? 2 princess aku tu punya la power puff gals, very notti hooooo...letih melayan depa tu, so imagine if aku ada baby lagi, aku pun tak terimagine macam mana tau.
Kalau aku ni fulltime housewife, dok melangut kt rumah, masak makan basuh mengemas tu semua may b aku akan tambah kot..heehee. Kerja aku lani agak tak mengizinkan aku tambah la coz, kerja ni ada deadline, kena peak season, bizi bees semua tu macam mana anak2 aku nanti? Ko bayangkan, anak2 aku lani dok nuseri 9-6pm, if ada baby lagi, dengan si baby tu pun kena pos..ish ish..kesian tau.
Finacially plak, kalau sorang dah rm300, if tiga rm900 wooohooohooo.
mampukah aku? takkan aku nak bagi susah umi jaga anak2 aku tu..no no no.
bagi aku gak, aku suka life aku lani, anak2 semakin besar n dah senang sikit nak handle, sikit ja la kan. Aku pun rasa lebih baik aku fokus kat depa berdua tu so that aku boleh make sure both dapat equal treatment dari aku compare if bertiga rasanya agak susah nak fokus kot...
Itu semua bagi aku, jangan la plak nanti ada yg kata aku ni sengaja menolak rezeki hoccay! AKu buat macam ni utk kebaikan anak2 aku, semuanya bersebab. Aku tak rasa aku mampu for third child la.
Tapi aku tak menolak kalau dah tertulis aku ada 3 anak. Aku kena redha la tu.
Benda ni aku n darling hubby memang ada diskus n dia pun tak kisah 2 atau 3. Thanks Dear! Ya la, benda2 macam ni memang kena diskus betul2, ni suma kan masa depan. Jangan sampai orang kata, buat anak pandai, jaga tak pandai. Huishhhh..xmau aku orang kata macam tu kat aku. Memandangkan kita tak leh nk predict future, so aku rasa first thing first la.
Uols tengok dak Bersamamu? ala yg tv3 tu..uols bayangkan, idup dah susah tapi anak beratuq, tak kesian ka kat budak2 tu, makan pakai tak tentu hala. Makbapak dok sebuk tambah ank. Aku kesian tau kat anak2 depa. Si makbapak tu, dah tau idup macam tu, patut2 la. Kadang2 aku hangin bila tengok si mak ni dok menangis bagai tup2 pewut muncit lagi satu.
Tak kira la miskin ka, kaya ka, kalau rasa tak dapat nak jaga anak elok2 baik pikir sejuta kali before menambah. And again, memang anak tu rezeki tapi kita sebagai makbapak ni kena usaha sendiri utk hidup yang lebih baik dan bukan dengan simpati orang. Ya, may b orang boleh tolong, tapi sampai bila? Orang dah bagi jala, pandai pandai la p menjala, paham kan maksud aku tu? Jangan orang dah bagi jala kita dok nganga tak tau nak guna. Cukup time minta lagi jala, ater sampai bila?
Same goes, Allah dah bagi otak, pandai2 la guna.
So before orang kata aku ni provokatif ka apa ka..better off now, sat aku menambah lagi ada yang tak syok plak. Moral of the story, "Ukur Baju di Badan sendiri". Jangan dah tau badan kecik lagi ada ati nak pakai baju besaq..hehehe
Renung renungkan..
Thursday, October 29, 2009
I am a proud Mommy!
First of all aku panjatkan kesyukuran kehadratNya atas kurniaan ini. Alhamdulillah.
Last week (19 - 23 Oct 2009), anak2 aku start final exam. And today their evaluation's day. Masa nk sampai school depa aku punya la kecut perut, macam tu la aku tiap kali nk p amek report card depa..huhuhu. Masuk je school tu, we decided to go to amani@adik's class first. Well, masuk class n duduk salam semua tu, the teacher buka her record book...jeng jeng jeng..nervous aku at first, tup2 aku nampak nama adik ada atas sekali n terus aku buat horizontal scanning.....huh!, semua subjects including reading, understanding 100%, so the teacher pun congrats us....am speechless la plak. Why am I speechless? Ya la, a week before exam tu aku py suruh depa study, si kakak mmg fokus study n no TV lagi, tp si adik plak, dia langsung xmau study. Apa yg dia buat? Kacau kakak study la, amek buku kakak la n main. Tp aku mmg tak paksa la dia coz dia ada few years lg nk kindy, kang paksa boring plak budak tu. As a parents, we did not put highly expectation on adik yet, well u know she's only 4 years old. Cakap exam pun bukan dia kisah pun..hehe.
Tapi Alhamdulillah, result dia mmg bagus. Adik dapat nombor 1 dlm klas.
Back to kakak, a week before exam dia mmg study n no tv during weekdays, sampai rumah dlm maghrib mcm tu, trus amek book dia n start buat revision for 2 hours. This time aku lebih strict dgn dia dan aku warn dia mcm ni "if u get bad result, u'll never allowed to go for the school concert"..hahaha..kejamnya aku. Aku terpaksa buat mcm tu coz, next year dia nk masuk primary 1, if skrg dia still main2, nnt masuk primary sure payah. So ni kira as preparation for her to be more decipline la. Luckily dia pun tak hangin dgn warning aku ni, kalau tak mmg jenuh aku nk mujuk dia tau..
Smlm aku ada ty kakak, "kakak rasa kakak dpt nombor brapa?"..kawan muka sudah tukar la..terus jd emo dia...dia kata teacher kata xbagus..alamak! aku plak yg jd takut..hehe
So td, lepas jumpa teacher adik, we ols jumpa teacher kakak plak, si teacher tu plak leh ty aku, "what do you think ur gal get?"..ha ko...jenuh aku nk create ayat2 power nk jawap, so instead of answering the question aku terus story psl commitment kakak before the exam...
at last the teacher buka la her record book, n taadaaaa.....mmg improve result kakak compare to the 1st sem last few months.
Alhamdulillah, kakak dapat nombor 3. So tahun ni, kakak n adik akan naik stage amek hadiah..
Syukur sgt. Teacher kakak ada ty "what do you feel, do you feel proud of ur kids?"..jawapan aku "Yes, I am definitely proud of them" "I am a proud mommy"
Bukan nk riak tapi aku mmg bersyukur sgt2 dgn anak2 aku. Some might say, "ala baru kindy dah havoc plak mak budak2 ni" tapi aku tak kesah la coz for me dari kindy la kita kena asuh atau prepare anak2 kita for their bright future.
Untuk kakak & adik, selagi umi ada, umi akan pastikan anak2 umi mendapat yg terbaik tak kira dalam apa jua hal sekalipun. Umi & abah berbangga sangat dengan kakak & adik. Umi & abah berdoa, kakak n adik sentiasa menjadi anak yg baik, pandai dan berjaya dalam hidup...Amin
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Thursday, October 22, 2009
Figure Fixers: How to Dress Slimmer
Overall Slimming
- Go Monochromatic. Dressing top-to-toe in a similar color can make you appear taller and slimmer. There's no need to be too exact in color-matching, as long as they're in the same color family.
- Dark Pieces. Dark colors peel away kilos. But don't just stick to black: Other variants like charcoal and navy work just as well too.
- Thin Vertical or Diagonal Stripes. Thinner stripes will make you appear more petite. Stay away horizontal stripes.
- Heels. Shoes with heels make you appear taller, arch your back, thrust your chest and tighten your calves. Great posture, better legs. Need we say more?
- Not Too Tight. You can still wear fitting styles but make sure that they are flowy and skim nicely on your body to accentuate your curves. Clothes that cling too tightly will showcase your flaws instead.
- Tummy Control. Almost everyone wears those elastic tummy-control panties when they're attending formal parties in a slinky number.
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Sunday, October 11, 2009
MLM: Pro&Cons
dah lama aku tak post entry kan? Aku bizi sangat2 lani. Ni pun curi2 time gak.
Back to tajuk kt atas nunnnn...
Uols tau kan, aku mmg ada join MLM, so far aku tak la top achiever tp aku just kategori amatur ja. Ni kalau baby, baru level memusing ja pun. Bukan tak dak semangat nk up level tu, tp uols tau la kan, aku keja 9-6 (ni bukan alasan haaaa...tp kenyataan), kadang2 tu kena stayback lewat. Tak paham? Ok ok..aku xplain la sikit. Normal days, balik kul 6, tunggu darling mai amek (aku ni penumpang tegar..ngeh3) masa tu dh nak dekat kul 7pm. Before balik rumah kena p cari shoru dulu, ater mana sempat nk balik masak. Lepas makan bagai, sampai rumah dlm kul 8pm..ha ha...jgn kata aku setan p makan time magrib hoccay...tu antara aku dgn NYA.
Aku just ada time dalam 2-3 jam ja kat rumah bila malam. Kul 9.30-10pm kena bawa my gals p tidoq, depa ni amek masa lama nak lena tau, kdg2 sampai sejam aku dok nganga dlm bilik. Nak bangun kuar depa pun ikut (berkorban ni tau..huhuhu), so kena la aku make sure depa betui2 lena baru aku cha alif bot. So masa tu dh kul 10.30-11pm tau. Masa tu la aku nak melipat baju bajan bagai. Nasib la aku ada hubby yg betui2 rajin (thanx darling, muaah!). Bab basuh baju n menyidai tu bab dia. Bab vakum rumah pun bab dia kdg2. AKu bab meng iron, melipat n mengemop basuh toilet bagai la (ni termasuk bab chef weekend ok). N of coz bab anak2 gak. Weekend aku lg la byk house chores nk buat.
So apa pendapat uols, adakah aku ada cukup time utk menaik taraf aku dlm MLM? Ada yg kata tu semua alasan aku. Tp uols tau dak, depa2 yg kata tu ada masa yg byk sgt2. Ater, dh balik keja pun kul 2-3pm, masa rest siang hari sure byk, n of coz la mlm depa ada byk masa nk p sharing suma tu. Bayangkan kalau keja mcm aku buat mcm tu? Tak terabai ka famili aku? Anak2 aku dok nuseri siang hari, balik pun sama dgn aku. Aku kena ada masa utk depa gak. Malam la masa aku dgn famili aku.
Well well, sure ada gak yg tak puas ati dok kata, nk berjaya kena berkorban, cari duit pun utk famili, mcm2 la. Tu depa, aku ni xdak maid, aku keja, semua kena buat sendiri sendiri. Memang nk berjaya kena berkorban. Tapi ada ka cara tu betui? Takkan anak2 nk tinggai anak2 kt hubby ja? Kesian la hubby aku yg keja penat2 gak wei!
Aku ni manusia yg perlu gak rest, mesin lagikan kena shutdown, ni plak aku, terover keja aku plak go down. I admit, MLM mmg bagus utk future kita coz sampai bila nk mkn gaji ye dak? Tp bagi aku la, may b skrg bukan time aku utk shoot up ke higher level lg. InsyaAllah ke depan nanti ka. Sapa tau kan? Aku still buat, tp man man lor (baca ni dlm dailek cina k)! . Tak byk sikit still ada rezeki side aku tu..Amin.
Well, the truth is, aku memang nk achieve better life, better living & segala2 la. It just a matter of time la. Ada rezeki kita mmg x kemana. I'll try my best and lets Allah S.W.T do the rest. Tak perlu la aku dok canang sana sini mcm mana aku berkerja keras cari rezeki bagai ni. Cukup2 la. Benda2 mcm ni tak elok la dok vangga2 pukul gendang. Boleh buat orang cuak dgn kita nnt. Sedara sedaging pun boleh putus, kawan pun lari wooooo.
Kalau dh rezeki depa dulu dari aku, I'm glad for them. Tak dak sekelumit pun PHD dlm hati aku ni. I do proud of them. Dan aku pun tak la sampai nk mengeneng2 kt depa. Masing2 py rezeki. If u dh usaha tp belum berhasil, may b bukan rezeki lagi, just wait la. Soon or later sure ada your rezeki. Apa yg penting usaha dulu. IT JUST A MATTER OF TIME!
So rite now hanya aku yg tahu apa yg aku buat for our future. InsyaAllah, the time will come.
Aku yang tak pernah give up....
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Satu Malaysia?
Wah2..tajuk politik tak hingat...hehe..gimik lg tuu..
mcm ni frenz, uols tau kan anak aku yg si kakak ni nx year masuk primary 1. N last year, 3rd March 2008, aku dh register dia kt CGL School, anak aku budak yg ke 7 tau, 1st day lg dh p register. Masa register tu, clerk tu cakap, by September leh dpt result..katanya...
Alkisah, masuk September aku py havoc dk tunggu surat dari JPN nak tau kakak dpt ke idak skool tu..tunggu punya tunggu..tak sampai2 gak..dah macam orang angau dok tunggu love letter bagai aku ni tau...
so, on 29th Sept 2009, aku pk, "tak bolah jadi ni, harus aku kol CGL terus ni". (dialog ni telah di translate ok)
So, minah ni pun kol la CGL n kepoh tanya, apasal ai tak dpt anything from JPN lg?, si clerk ni pun jawap "u patutnya dah dapat on Ogos baru ni",
minah ni apalagi, "uit?, tp ai mmg x receive apa2 letter dari JPN pun".
Si clerk ni pun ckp "surat tu adalah surat pengesahan penempatan sekolah n puan kena p bawa surat tu utk verify yg puan terima sekolah mana yg JPN dh alocate anak puan, if not nama anak puan akan di kansel dr list"...
minah ni pun " ayoooo...apa ai nak buat ni?"
si clerk ngokgek "u kena p JPN and isi form lewat daftar"
minah ni (dlm ati..) "dah mcm tu pulak" kadavale tul la..
so dipendekkan cerita, anak aku tak dpt CGL tp di allocate ke sekolah lain plak.
si ibu yg tak puas ati ni, terus kol JPN n PPD utk clarify, verify mcm2. Last2 aku kena isi form lewat register tu n buat surat rayuan coz aku nk gak si kakak masuk CGL. Td dh submit suma tu n end of Nov/early Dec leh dpt result. Doa2 la utk si kakak. Aku pun harap dapat.
Tp uols bayangkan, orang yg ke 7, 1st day lagi dh p register, very determine nih, lg depa buat mcm tu. Adil ka? Satu Malaysia ke keputusan JPN itu?
Masa dpt tau si kakak tak dpt skool tu, aku bagi tau dia la "kakak, kakak tak dpt CGL". Uols tau, tup2 aku nampak air mata dia bergenang, merah idung dia tahan menangis..sebak tau. Perasaan seorang ibu ni lg la sedih bila tgk anak mcm tu. AKu tau dia mmg nak sgt skool tu. Tiap2 kali lalu kt CGL, dia slalu ckp, "umi, akak nk skool ni nanti".
I've tried my best dear, kol sana sini just to make sure kakak dpt skool tu.
Why I choosed CGL? Coz,
1) Eng Ed
2) gal school
3) control school
4) more elite sports activity
5) most of the students there, very open minded
6) environment, I want my kids to mix around w all races, diff culture, diff opinion
last but not least...Datuk Nicole David was there before..
Ya Allah! Tolong lah Hamba mu ini. Bagi la anak aku peluang untuk belajar di sekolah itu...Amin..
Dear all, aku sedih coz, dlm PM kita dok war2 psl 1 Malaysia, still ada orang yg mengamalkan sikap pilh kasih. Just bcoz ppl like us xdak cable kuat, suka2 buat kita mcm tu..
lg satu, CGL side yg salah coz dia ckp September padahal Ogos. Yg buat aku hangin lg is, deadline utk pengesahan penempatan skool plak 28 Ogos & deadline tuk buat rayuan plak pd 15 September. N aku dpt tau psl benda ni plak on 29th Sept. By the time semua dh closed date...Kes ni jd lg ssh la. AKu ni xdak experience benda2 ni, dh anak 1st, mana aku tau procedure tu semua. Dah kata tunggu September 2009, aku tunggu la sampai time tu. Salah aku ke? Tidak sama sekali.
Pk pk kan...hari ni myb aku kena, tp in future sure org laen pun akn terkena mcm ni..sampai bila kan?
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Eid Mubarak
Hanya gambar ciput ni jer yg dapat aku publish ari ni......tak byk gambar coz kamera aku kan dh ngokngek...ni pun kamera org laen...
caption for gambar2 ni, yg tema itam2 tu, anak BIL aku, both sebaya anak2 aku, si abang 6yrs, n the adik 4yrs. Ni la geng kacang abad ini. 4 orang dh mcm empatploh ribu py havoc. Ngeri tul2 bebudak ni tau, ganas n PHD kemain lg...sekali skala jumpa pun dok gado ja depa, 2org loghat utara, 2org loghat Ganu pure...toksey toksey manjang...aku bg tosei baru hampa tau...
tp anak2 aku still dlm kategori sopan la compare dgn jante n tino (baca loghat ganu hoccay) tu..kihkihkih..
Sori Bro, ater dh mmg betui pa..
Friday, September 18, 2009
Dah nak raya!
Diam tak diam dh nak raya la weh. AKu mcm percaya tak percaya la plak. Esok dh nk balik KK, rumah mentua. Ada suka, ada tak syok gak. Suka of coz sebab raya, tak suka coz, tak cukup bilik daa...ipar duai tigai semua tu dh kepoh2 balik awai2, so dpt la kt depa bilik2 tu semua. Aku & famili lak, ntah la nk landing kt na. Aku dh plan elok2 dh coz ingat si BIL yg baru kawen baru ni balik rmh mentua dia, mana tau dia pon kepo balik KK, ater maka tak cukup bilik la...hish potong line tui la deni. Aku ni dh beranak pinak, takkan nk tido bilik bujang sekangkang kera tu? Pk logik la ppl. Ada ka patut depa leh kata, yg lama kena beralah? Seniority maaa...ater yg si baru tu kepoh2 balik raya salah tempat apa kes?
Kalau ikut salasilah kami yg kawen dolu2 ni, 1st year raya balik rmh blah pompuan, ni menongkah arus namanya...mengong arrr.
Masing2 tahu masing2 nk balik bila, stat la masing2 plan balik awai lg so leh la depa cilok mana2 bilik depa suka. Depa keja sendiri n keja yg 3ari keja 4 ari cuti xpa la balik suka suki bila. Aku n darlingku keja lain yg tak leh nk suka suki ko amek cuti awai2.
Pada uols la kan, patut ka depa kata "yg lama kena beralah"? For me la, takkan dah ada menantu baru menantu lama dibuat bola ye dak? Padahal, menantu yg lama ni la yg dah byk share mcm2, dek pasai menantu baru, yg lama kena hi hi bye2. Ada ka patut kawan kawan? Takkan la balik raya pun kami nk dok otel? Ari tu masa BIL kawen, kami dh kena stay tempat lain, its fine coz their's big day, ini amacam bro? Sudah2 la nk dpt priority, kome tu dh jd pengantin basi n dh tentu berdua, yg deme ni berempat, pk2 la, nk tido celah mana lg? Takkan gua mau tido kt hall kot? Malu weh sat gi baik py posing time tido tu n tiba2 ada plak yg lalu, anchua lor? Dah la FIL aku tu bangun seawal 5am n stat review satu rumah, on lampu sekampung meriah bagai, kesian la anak anak aku.
Aku pun tak tahu apa yg diaorang PHD sgt dgn kami ni? Tak la plak aku kaco depa before ni.
Ni la yg spoiled mood raya aku, nak balik pun 50 50 ja ni..Adusss...Ntah la frenz...nasib nasib..
Esok km sampai, aku nk tgk reaksi depa macam mana n reaksi aku mcm na gak...yg pasti kebenaran harus ditegakkan....cewah..mcm hang jebat hang tuah la pulok..
udah2 la, posa ni, nanti lps raya sambung lak.
Daaa...Selamat Beraya
N berhati hati dijalan raya sambil beraya k?
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Salam Lebaran
credit to yummyflashy!
Di kesempatan ini, saya ingin memohon sejuta kemaafan atas segala ketelanjuran kata, bicara dan perbuatan yang tidak saya disedari bisa menyinggung perasaan anda semua. . Saya hanya insan biasa yang tak pernah lari dari dugaan dan kesilapan. Doa saya, semoga Syawal yang bakal menjelma ini memberi kita keberkatan, kesihatan yang baik dan kebahagiaan.
Keluargaku, ampun maaf dipinta andai diri ini telah menyinggung perasaan semua. Halalkan segala perbuatan yg tidak disenangi, halalkan juga segala makan minum selama ini.
Jernihkan segala keruh dihati agar kita dapat meraikan Syawal ini dengan sempurna tanpa secalit rasa sakit di hati.
Terima la diri ini seadanya kerna itulah diri ini. Seorang hamba yang tidak tahu menyembunyikan perasaan gembira mahupun amarah juga seorang hamba yang lantang berbicara. Kerna aku bukan manusia yang hipokrit.
Keluargaku, kita tidak dapat membaca masa depan. Namun kiranya lebaran ini lebaran terakhir untuk kita raikan bersama, diri ini berdoa semoga lebaran kali ini dapat memberi kita beribu kenangan dan kebahgiaan yang tidak mungkin dapat kita lupakan.
Salam Aidil Fitri dari ku untuk semua...
Charger kamera ilang la plak..
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Happy Birthday my darling Aleesa
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Happy Birthday Amani aka adik Sayang
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Selamat Hari Lahir Umi
Umi ku selayaknya dpt award The Best Mom in the World. Itu bagi kami adik beradik hoccay!. Umi sememangnya sorang umi yg tabah, terlalu baik hati dan tidak pernah berdendam dgn orang. Ko buat la apapun, ko kata la apa pun kt dia, dia tak simpan dalam hati.
Tujuan aku story semua ni utk kita jadikan iktibar dan bukan utk buka pekung didada atau mengaibkan sesiapa.
Aku ingat lagi, masa we ols kecik2 dulu, umi ni bukan menantu favorite, umi selalu dikutuk oleh sang manusia2 yg sakit hati dgn umi. Apa saja umi buat ada saja yg buruk depan depa. Tapi umi tak kisah, tanggungjawap sebagai wife, umi n menantu tetap umi buat dgn ikhlas. Sedari kecik aku pun dh biasa bab2 kena kutuk, pilih kasih sedarah sedaging ni. Dh immune aku ni tau.
Memandangkan kami stay skali dgn arwah hubabah, umi la yg jaga arwah hubabah masa arwah sakit. Umi tak pernah minta balasan pun, tu pun ada yang sakit hati. Umi ni sebaik baik manusia. Aku pun tak tau mcm na umi leh sabar dgn manusia2 itu. Masa tu aku baru 10yrs so tak byk yg aku leh tolong umi, nk backing umi pun tak pandai sgt. Pernah aku try backing umi tp at last aku kena hantam teruk2.
uols bayangkan, selama brapa tahun umi jaga arwah hubabah, makan minum mandi semua tu. last bila arwah dh tenat sgt2 diorg bawa p tempat lain, about 1 week after hubabah arwah. Yg dapat nama? of coz bukan umi. Org yg jaga seminggu tu la yg dpt nama. Umi? Umi teruk kena hina sedangkan masa arwah dgn umi xdak sapa mai jengok. tup2 depa leh tau apa yg jadi konon masa umi jaga hubabah..aku mmg hangin bab ni. Tapi umi kata takpa, Allah Maha Mengetahui & Saksama. Even masa walid arwah pun ada yg boleh kata "walid hampa dh arwah, so ur mom dah tak dak pertalian dgn aku". Aku la saksi percakapan manusia itu. Umi tak tau tu, coz aku mmg tak sanggup nk bagi tau umi. Biarlah benda ni aku rahsiakan kat umi. Cukupla hati umi sakit.
Mmg betui cakap umi, now manusia2 yg selalu mengutuk, menghina kami anak beranak got their pay. Allah mmg bayar cash kan, it just a matter of time ja, soon or later.
Alhamdulillah, even kami tak kaya tp kami tak meminta or minta simpati manusia2 itu. Aku respect umi dgn semangat n ketabahan dia. Hati umi cukup bersih. Tp aku tau till now, still ada yg tak puas hati dgn apa yg umi dapat atau buat. Ntah la manusia, cukup2 la n sedaq2 la, anda tak tahu masa anda. Kot dok tgh kutuk2 org Allah tarik nyawa ka, tak ka naya. So sudah2 la.
Umi aku tak pernah pun kutuk sapa2 even blakang2 tau. Dikalangan kawan2 umi mmg favorite. Umi disenangi org lain yg bukan sedara sendiri. Kesian umi, tp umi tak ambek hati pun. Jumpa kat mana2 pun, kenduri kendara ka umi still tegur manusia2 itu tanpa ada dendam dlm hati. Dari pengalaman, aku tau manusia2 itu masih busuk hati dgn umi. Tp for me as long kami tak kacau hampa, hell la. Dosa hampa bukan kami.
To umi, "Selamat Hari Lahir, Panjang Umur & dimurah kan rezeki sentiasa" kami anak-anak umi sentiasa support & sayang umi hingga ke akhir hayat...Amin
Kepada sesiapa yg telah membaca coretan ni diharap ianya menjadi teladan utk uols. Sesungguhnya Allah itu Maha Mengetahui & Adil. What u give u'll get back, it just a matter of time"
Luvs my mom
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Im in blues....
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Perginya takkan kembali lagi...
entry ni mmg emo sikit coz, tiap2 kali nk raya feelin ni sure singgah dlm hati aku ni...
FYI, aku sudah tidak berbapa since Oktober 2001. Arwah walid meninggal on October 1st, 2001, sebulan b4 1st wedding anniversary aku. Memang dah tertulis masa arwah setakat tu saja, aku redha. Tapi dlm redha tu ada sedikit ralat dlm hati ni.
Arwah stat sakit on July 2001, few weeks lps abang arwah (Arwah Ami Ahmad) meninggal. Arwah walid kena stroke, sebelah kiri. Masa tu aku stay rumah sendiri yg agak jauh la gak.
Masa tgk arwah kt GH, aku xtau nk describe perasaan aku, sebak, sayu n mcm2. Hanya Allah S.W.T yg tau macam mana perasaan aku time tu. Aku jd takut, takut if walid tinggalkan kami. Masa tu mmg arwah dh tak leh cakap langsung, mmg mcm baby, just boleh kuar bunyi2 ja. Kami byk sembang n bg semangat kt dia even kami tau arwah mmg xkan paham due to his condition, tp kami xpeduli tu coz yg penting dia tau kami dekat dgn dia.
Lps 1wk kt GH, arwah discharge, balik rumah. Aku n hubby pindah sementara balik rumah walid coz nk jaga arwah, days by days keadaan arwah ximprove gak. Hari2 ku panjatkan doa utk walid cepat recover.
Mcm2 cara kami try utk cure arwah tp myb dah takdir walid mcm tu...on off masuk ward.
Keadaan walid makin teruk bila tiba2 dia start vomit darah, time tu aku n hubby dok siap2 nk p ofis, memandangkan keadaan dh mcm tu, kami kol ambulans. Arwah dibawa skali lg ke GH, trus ke emergency room. Doc panggil waris walid, aku, hubby n umi masuk n masa tu aku mmg rasa mcm nk pengsan bila tgk doc dh pasang ventilation support dlm mulut walid, dlm hati aku dpt rasa masa walid mmg xlama...aku redha dgn apa yg bakal terjadi. Aku redha coz aku xsanggup tgk keadaan walid yg terlalu menyanyat hati. Aku xmau walid terseksa.
Seminggu arwah dlm keadaan macam tu. Masa tu sedara mara aku dh pesan kt aku, kalau ada apa2 salah, minta maaf cepat kt arwah. Ya, aku buat apa yg dipesan. Dlm linangan air mata yg aku sendiri xtau mcm mana byknya..aku minta ampun, minta maaf, halal makan minum dan segala perbuatan aku kt walid. Aku nampak ada titisan air mata keluar dr mata walid. AKu tahu dia dengar dan paham cuma dia tak boleh nk cakap. Masa tu aku mmg sebak yg amat sgt..aku mula bertambah takut dlm redha...
Lps seminggu, doc kata baik bawa arwah balik rumah coz mmg dh tak dapat nak buat apa2. So kami pun setuju. Tapi arwah tak balik rumah kami, tp terpaksa dihantar ke nurseri atas desakan manusia laen bukan dgn kehendak kami anak2 walid..kami terpaksa akur walaupun berat hati kami.
Tiap hari lepas keja aku p melawat arwah, aku xpernah skip tu. Tp nk dijadikan cerita, minggu yg sama, hubby aku ajak balik kg weekend tu. Berat hati nk balik sebenarnya, tp ntah la aku setuju. So weekend tu, selama 2 hari aku tak dapat melawat arwah. Aku pk xpa la, esok lps keja leh p.
Isnin tu, 1hb Oktober 2001, aku p keja mcm biasa. Tup2 dlm kul 10am, hubby aku kol n inform kt aku org nuseri kol coz keadaan walid dah nazak. Aku suruh hubby aku kol ambulans, dia kata xpa, kita p tgk dulu. So kami pun sampai ke nurseri tu....masa aku sampai, aku tgk walid dh tutup mata, aku ingat dia tido, tapi hubby aku cakap, sebenarnya walid dah arwah masa dia kol aku kt opis, dia tak nak bg tau aku coz takut sumting jd kat aku. Lps tu aku mmg rasa lemah, aku terduduk kt lantai sambil pegang tangan arwah. Aku menagis sepuasnya..Ya Allah, aku sedih, aku pasrah suratan ini.
Sesungguhnya aku ralat sebab arwah pegi tanpa ada anak2 disisinya. AKu tak tahu apa yg arwah mungkin nak seblum dia pergi..aku ralat sgt..
Keadaan wajah arwah memang berseri2.. aku ingat tu.
Sesungguhnya aku amat merindui arwah....
Ya Allah, Engkau tempatkan lah Arwah bersama golongan Ahli Syurga...
Sesungguhnya, aku amat merindui, menyanyangi walid...
Al Fatihah buat Arwah walid...Syed Fuad Alhady
Yeah yeah! si kakak dh posa full...
ntah2 apa2 tajuk ntry aku ni kan? ni la namanya ntry fenin2 langau!
ohh..how i wish today still holiday
bestnya weekend ni, tp diam tak diam ari ni dh kena keja la plak...awatla Merdeka xcuti lelama? bg la xra 1 ari lagi.
Psl pa aku kata bestnya holiday? sebabnya...jeng jeng jeng.....
cuti ni aku betui2 dpt masak, dari sahur sampai berbuka, ALhamdulillah. Tak berbuka kat luar pun tau, 3ari tau..aku bangga bangat nih!
Sabtu aku buat,
1)buah melaka
2)kuah pindang
3)bubur lambuk
Ahad
1)Puding Milo
2)Fetuccine Carbonara
Isnin
1)Makroni sup
p/s:dessert semlm ada lg, so xbuat la..
tp tak semua aku amek gambo, ater, dh berbuka lapau la...dh abih baru teringat..huahuahua
overall, masakan aku kira menjadi la gak, walaupun aku ni memang jarang jarang...kadang kadang ja masak...
apa kata darling aku? ish..deni ego sikit, mana ada nak puji2 ni...padahal dia santap xhingat...hehe
apa yg penting famili aku dapat makan hasil titik peluh ku, hasil air tangan ku ini...no artificial color, flavor n no msg tau. Low sugar n low salt gak..kihkihkih...
ni pewut dh kenyang, tgu time nk solat nih...so gotta go for now..
daaaaaaa
Have a nice weekdays ols
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Thank You
first of all, nak thanks to all my new blog's member. Aku amat berterima kasih dgn kalian kerna, sanggup meluangkan masa membaca nukilan, terkilan & repekan ku ini...tocheh!
aku harap blogku ni dpt menghiburkan kalian semua diwaktu senggang..tiba-tiba aku jd formal plak..ish..musykil aku...
buat masa ni aku masih dlm proses blajar berblog ni, tu la orang berblog, aku pun sibuk nk blog, tapi tak katam2 lg. ni dok blajaq la..sabau2.
ari ni aku ada banyak plan, nk la shara la dgn uols:
1)plan nk p Tesco, beli barang dapur, masak segala maknenek la
2)nk p shopping sat, beli kasut raya anak-anakku
3)balik nk masak. apa aku plan nk masak?
plan 1) bubur lambuk
2) buah melaka
3) puding coklat
4)masak utk sahur, kuah singgang & vege
Itu antara plan la, hope aku gigih melaksanakan plan aku ni, jgn indah kabar dari rupa ja..
Kalau aku berjaya buat tu semua, akanku load semua foto hasil keras tanganku ini...dun wori!
Tis week kan holiday 3 hari, so las nite aku dh list down benda yg aku nk buat/setel.
Of cos main, nak masak la, try skill pun sama..
so apa plan uols? MIND to Share?
ni aku dk melangut dpn lappy ni dari sahur tadi, pas solat, sambung balik..gigih gigih, sat g anak2 bangun baru aku tau, xdak chance nak lelap..padan muka aku.
baru dk cakap, si adik dh bangun la plak, gotta go now! budak ni klu dah bangun stat la nk buat haru, tak pun buat onar
seblum dia stat baik aku cha alif bot....
have a nice weekend dear frenz!
Let pictures say it all
Thursday, August 27, 2009
tak sempat nk update lagi
just nk kabo kan, aku xsempat lg nk update blog ni ari ni..nk kena setel job sat...InsyaAllah sehari dua nnt leh kot..sigh...
tis week ada 3hari cuti..heeeehaaa....MERDEKA!
akan ku curi masa hupdate blog ni...
tatatitu....
Malunya aku..huahuahua
nk cita skit, namanya beginner bab blogging nih kan...selama 2 bln ni aku xtau pun followers aku ada bg comment daa...ayoooo..malu gue...ater dh xreti nk add widget bagai..kuang3..gelak kat diri sendiri. Tu pun nasib td aku dk godek sana sini baru terjumpa benda alah ni, Comment's widget...oi malu la hg...ish ish...dh sama tua dgn penang pun benda alah ni xtau.
xpa la, aku maafkan diri ku ini..
anyway, aku dk study lg la mcm na nk reply comment tu suma..nnt dh terer aku reply la nooo...otak jam arrr....
n thnx for all the sweet comment...
sejak posa ni malas ckit nk update blog, xtau la, letih kot. Dah kalau aku dk sebuk hupdate sure sampai tgh malam, kul 4am esok tu dh nk bgn sahur plak. xdan wooo..ni pun paksa gak coz takkan aku nk biaq blog aku ni bersawang..
esok2 klu aku ada idea cerdik ckit, aku update la lg..ada actually tp xtau nk deliver cam na...
aku nk kena chow ni, bantai dk pangel aku la...
zzzzzzzzzzz.............nite ols
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Ramadhan yg indah....Sob Ba Ra'
Friday, August 21, 2009
Salam Ramadhan
Dimulakan dgn Bismillah...
Thursday, August 20, 2009
The Water Cure
In a fascinating one-hour phone conversation, Dr. B. shares:
• Which common ailments and "diseases" are actually caused by dehydration
• Why many doctors use water-regulating antihistamines to alleviate pain
• How Dr. Batmanghelidj unintentionally discovered water's healing properties
• Why most people are chronically dehydrated and suffer from symptoms of dehydration that are labeled "diseases"
• Which ingredients in soft drinks deplete the body's water reserves
• Why thirst is not a reliable indicator of dehydration
• Why the body produces cholesterol and how water keeps it in balance
• Why Dr. Batmanghelidj believes the public is being mislead about AIDS
• How dehydration impairs mental functioning
• Why some organizations want to withhold alternative health information from the public
• How lack of water causes depression
• Why popular beverages are no substitute for water
• How dehydration causes the vascular system to constrict, leading to hypertension
• How to recognize signs that your body is starting to dehydrate
• Why restaurants push you to drink disease-promoting soft drinks
• Why and how water effectively treats pain and inflammation
Discovery of the water cure
An interview with Dr. Batmanghelidj
Mike: Welcome everyone, this is Mike Adams with Truth Publishing, and today I’m very excited to be welcoming Dr. Batmanghelidj, author of Water For Health, For Healing, For Life. Welcome, Dr. Batmanghelidj.Dr. B: Thank you very much for inviting me to be on the air with you and giving me the opportunity of sharing my thoughts on the future of medicine in this country.
Mike: I think there are many, many people who have read your books. People are intrigued by the idea that water can be a therapy, a healing substance for the human body. What is it about water? How did you first become aware of these healing properties of water?
Dr. B: Well, it’s very bizarre. As you know, I’m a regular doctor, an M.D. I had the honor and the privilege of being selected as one of the house doctors, and I had the extreme honor of being one of the last students of Sir Alexander Fleming, the discoverer of penicillin. I mention his name so that you know I was immersed in medical school and research. And some years later, I had to give two glasses of water to a person who was doubled up in abdominal pain from his disease, because I had no other medication to give him at that moment. And he was in excruciating pain, and water performed miraculous relief for him. It gave him relief -- within three minutes his pain diminished, and within eight minutes it disappeared completely, whereas he was doubled up eight minutes before and he couldn’t even walk, he completely recovered from that situation. And he started beaming from ear to ear, very happy, asked me what happens if the pain comes back? I said, “Well, drink more water.” Then I decided to instruct him to drink two glasses of water every three hours. Which he did, and that was the end of his ulcer pains for the rest of the duration that he was with me.
Mike: And from that episode then, what happened next?
Dr. B: That woke me up, because in medical school I’d never heard that water could cure pain, that kind of pain, in fact. And so I had the occasion to test water as a medication in subsequently over 3,000 similar cases. And water proved every time to be an effective medication. I came away from that experience with the understanding that these people were all thirsty, and that thirst in the body can manifest itself in the form of abdominal pain to the level that the person can even become semi-conscious, because that’s the experience I had. And water picks them up every time.
So when I came to America in 1982, I went to the University of Pennsylvania, where I was invited to continue my research, and did research in the pain-relieving properties of water. I asked myself, why does the pharmaceutical industry insist on using antihistamines for this kind of pain medication? So I started researching the role of histamine in the body, and the answer was there -- histamine is a neurotransmitter in charge of water regulation and the drought management programs of the body. When it manifests pain, in fact, it is indicating dehydration.
So, the body does manifest dehydration in the form of pain. Now, depending on where dehydration is settled, you feel pain there. Very simple, and I presented this concept at the international conference as the guest lecturer of a conference on cancer, explaining that the human body manifests dehydration by producing pain, and pain is a sign of water shortage in the body, and water shortage is actually the background to most of the health problems in our society.
Because if you look at what the pharmaceutical industry is doing, they’re producing so many different antihistamines as medication. Antidepressant drugs are antihistamines, pain medication are antihistamines, other medications are directly and indirectly antihistamines. So, that is when my work was published, the scientific secretariat of the 3rd Interscience Board Conference of Inflammation invited me to make this presentation on histamine at their conference in 1989, in Monte Carlo. And I did that, and so it became a regular understanding that histamine is a water regulator in the body. But unfortunately, this information is not reaching the public through the medical community because it’s not a money-maker.
So that’s when I began to consider writing for the public, so that the public could become aware of the problem directly without the interference of a doctor, and that’s how I have generated all my medical information for the public. Of course, I have published extensively for the scientific community, but no one is picking up. In fact, the NIH, the Office of Alternative Medicine, had its first conference when the office was created, and I was asked to make my presentation, but when the proceedings of the conference came out, my presentation was censored after the proceedings. So there is a movement afoot within the NIH group of people to keep a closed lid on my information so that it doesn’t get out, because obviously they are more in favor of the drug industry, because it is now obvious that they are getting paid by them.
Mike: I think it is, first of all, that is an amazing account of what has been happening, and I think it is fair to say, too, that the pharmaceutical industry and organized medicine in general, really doesn’t want to promote anything that is free or near-free to the average patient. Sunlight is available at no charge, water is available at nearly no charge -- would you agree that their thinking is if people can cure their diseases, and achieve a high state of health on their own with these free substances, then that diminishes their profits and their importance?
Dr. B: Absolutely. That’s why I’ve created an organization now called National Association for Honesty in Medicine. Because I think it’s totally dishonest, in fact, criminal, to treat a person who is just thirsty, and give them toxic medication so that he gets sick and dies earlier than normal.
Mike: Can you give out the web address to that organization, by the way?
Dr. B: My website is http://www.watercure.com -- it gives you the option of going to one site or the other -- either Water Cure.com, or you can go the National Association for Honesty in Medicine. Or you can go to the information side of my website, http://www.watercure.com, because I have posted all of my scientific articles on dehydration on the website, and lots of other free information that people can have.
No substitute for water
Mike: I have a question for you on water -- a lot of people think that they are hydrating themselves when they consume soft drinks or milk or Gatorade or all these other liquid beverages…Dr. B: Gatorade is possibly okay, but Gatorade has sugar in it, and it's not particularly good for people who might even get hypoglycemic, or might induce insulin secretion, and that insulin secretion will produce more hunger and they overeat. But as a temporary sport drink, it's okay when you're in the middle of a golf game to drink a Gatorade. It immediately gives you a bit of the minerals that you probably will have lost sweating.
But nothing substitutes for water -- not a thing. No drink -- no coffee, no tea, no alcoholic beverages. Not even fruit juices. Each one of them has its own agenda. Your body is used to a fluid that has no agenda, because the body depends on the freedom of that fluid, water, because there are two kinds of water in the body. There is already occupied and engaged water, which is no good for new function. The body needs new water, or free water, to perform new functions. Now, when you give them sugar containing beverages, or caffeine containing beverages, both sugar and caffeine have their own chemical agenda in the body. They defeat the purpose of the need for water.
Mike: You're also talking about soft drinks here…
Dr. B: I'm talking about soft drinks, I'm talking about sodas, I'm talking about caffeine containing coffee or tea. I'm also talking about alcohol, because alcohol actually stops the emergency water supply systems to the important cells, such as the brain cells. In the reverse osmosis process your body filters and injects water into the cells, and this is what I call reverse osmosis. And it has to raise the blood pressure for that in order to overcome the osmotic pull of water out of the cells, and reinject water into the cells. That's why we develop high-blood pressure in dehydration. And this process of reverse osmosis is stopped by alcohol. It stops the filter system.
Chronic Disease Caused by Lack of Water
Mike: Let me start this next section by asking you about the correlation between water consumption and chronic disease. There are many diseases you mention in your books that are related to dehydration. I wonder if you can give our readers a brief of what the major diseases are and why they are aggravated or promoted by chronic dehydration.Dr. B: Certainly, Mike. I have written a book called Water Cures and Drugs Kill. It's a book that explains why dehydration is the cause of pain and disease, and how the pharmaceutical industry has camouflaged this information or covered it up and instead of letting people drink water, it advertises the use of their products, which actually do kill. Because recent figures have shown that prescription medications, when used according to the instruction of doctors, nonetheless kill over 106,000 people, and make 2 million people sicker than before taking the medication. And then there is another group who die from faulty prescriptions, incorrect prescriptions.
So between them, about 250,000 people die from drug-related problems, medication-related problems. This makes the drugs the use of drugs the number three killer processes in the country -- protected and licensed killer process. After heart disease, which kills about seven or eight hundred thousand, cancer which kills about 500,000, drugs kill 250,000 people.
Mike: So it's fair to say that pharmaceuticals, as packaged by modern medicine, are the third leading cause of death in this country.
Dr. B: Absolutely, and they are useless, because most of the medication they are using is to cover up symptoms and signs and complications of dehydration in the human body. The human body manifests dehydration by a series of symptoms and signs, perceptive symptoms of dehydration -- in other words, brain senses dehydration, or tiredness when you haven't done a good day's work, or first thing in the morning when you want to get up out of bed and you're tired, you can't get up -- that is a sign of dehydration. Then anger, quick reaction, depression, these are all signs of dehydration, when the brain has very little energy from hydroelectricity to cope with the information or take action. These are some of the perceptive signs of dehydration. Then the body has its drought management program, which are allergies, hypertension, diabetes, and also immune diseases.
The link between dehydration and asthma
Mike: I'd like you to elaborate a little more on asthma, and the idea that the body is managing its water supply deliberately in a way that produces symptoms that are called asthma.Dr. B: Yes, well you see, drought management means that you have to clog the holes where water is lost from the body. Water is the most precious commodity in the interior of your body, and when not enough is coming in and more is being lost, this is a no-no situation for your body. The intelligence behind the design of the body has it such that a drought management program will kick in, and then allergies are a sign of dehydration because the system that regulates water balance of the body suppresses the immune system, because it's an energy-consuming situation. Then you get asthma.
You see, we lose about a quart of water through breathing every day. It is actually the surface tension in the alveoli of the lungs that produces contraction of these tiny membranes, and air is pushed out. And in the process, that water will leave with the air that is leaving. So you lose about a quart of water in breathing. We need to replenish that. When we don't replenish it, the body tightens up the bronchials and plugs up the holes and we call this reduced air flow in the lungs because of dehydration, we've labeled it as asthma.
Mike: Right. I've always been amazed that the willingness of modern medicine or western medicine to come up with these complicated sounding labels or names for diseases that should really have simpler names.
Dr. B: Jargon peddling is the way of commercial medicine. Sick-care system survives and thrives on pushing these jargons into the minds of the people, because people don't understand what these jargons, they hear them and they don't associate with anything in the body, but associate them with those jargons of fear that are drummed in the minds of people.
Now, children, there are 17 million children in America, probably more because the numbers rise every year, who have asthma, and the reason is, at the same time, children have been consuming more and more sodas. Three year olds to five year olds have been consuming three times as much soda in the last ten years than in the ten years before that. So these people are getting dehydrated, they are consuming more sodas, which doesn't function in the same way as water, and that is why they get asthma. Now, give these children water, and their asthma will disappear very quickly, in a matter of a few hours, completely the breathing becomes normal. The need for these inhalers will disappear.
And when I contacted the NIH and explained all of this, the gentleman who was in charge of this said I was so ignorant on what was going on, and yet he wanted to protect his freedom, and so he ignored the information even though I had gone to Clinton, President Clinton to ask him to intervene, and give breath back to these children. But the NIH was adamant to use medication. He wrote me, actually, and said we are satisfied with the way asthma is being treated. So, this is the situation. Now 17 million children is America can recover in a matter of a few days if everyone in the country started talking to asthmatic people and saying water is what you should take. Can you imagine a solution so simple?
Mike: Yes. Yes I can, and there are many such solutions available to treat a great number of chronic diseases, just like you've been describing here. Of course, the pharmaceutical industry I think would be horrified to have that information become widespread.
Dr. B: Yeah, well, because what I'm saying is totally anti-business, and we are not talking about a few hundred thousand dollars, we are talking about a few billion dollars a year.